I hate money.
Judging by the way I spend money, one wouldn't have the impression that I hate it. But I actually do. I hate money. Or rather, I hate it that I need so much of it to live, that my happiness actually depends on it. I've always seen myself as a prudent spender, but this year I came to a sudden realisation that I am actually a terrible spender.
I'm happiest when I'm travelling, and that needs money. A lot of it. I also like good food, and good food is usually not the cheapest. I hate making early decisions because I change my mind like I change clothes. If there's one thing I've learnt about myself, it's that I can never be set in stone about anything, because even my mind has a mind of its own. So I always wait for the last minute to decide on something, which is a very expensive habit. A last minute flight ticket or hotel reservation cost a fortune. A last minute change of plans almost always involves money.
I've always told myself I should be more careful with my spending, but like all expert procrastinators, I'd end up saying, "Yeah, maybe later" and swipe that damn card anyway.
Now I'm living in a place surrounded by nature, with fruit farms as far as the eye can see, and it's virtually impossible to spend more than 5 euros a day. But somehow I'm still always broke.
I guess I'm set in my ways. I am and will always be a big spender, and I have to stop being in denial about it. I need money to be happy.
Which is why I hate it. I hate it that I love it.
Stupid capitalism. (When all else fails, blame capitalism.)
Judging by the way I spend money, one wouldn't have the impression that I hate it. But I actually do. I hate money. Or rather, I hate it that I need so much of it to live, that my happiness actually depends on it. I've always seen myself as a prudent spender, but this year I came to a sudden realisation that I am actually a terrible spender.
I'm happiest when I'm travelling, and that needs money. A lot of it. I also like good food, and good food is usually not the cheapest. I hate making early decisions because I change my mind like I change clothes. If there's one thing I've learnt about myself, it's that I can never be set in stone about anything, because even my mind has a mind of its own. So I always wait for the last minute to decide on something, which is a very expensive habit. A last minute flight ticket or hotel reservation cost a fortune. A last minute change of plans almost always involves money.
I've always told myself I should be more careful with my spending, but like all expert procrastinators, I'd end up saying, "Yeah, maybe later" and swipe that damn card anyway.
Now I'm living in a place surrounded by nature, with fruit farms as far as the eye can see, and it's virtually impossible to spend more than 5 euros a day. But somehow I'm still always broke.
I guess I'm set in my ways. I am and will always be a big spender, and I have to stop being in denial about it. I need money to be happy.
Which is why I hate it. I hate it that I love it.
Stupid capitalism. (When all else fails, blame capitalism.)
2 comments:
How are you broke if you can't spend more than 5 euros a day? Are you doing online shopping or something?
Oh, money...we love it when we have enough, and hate it when we don't.
Aha. I spend as little as possible every day, but between my rent here, my rent back in France, monthly bus pass, the occasional trips I'm obliged to do for school stuff, food and some personal hygiene stuff, I'm left with little money.
And then there's the income tax which is scarily high here. If you get a job with a salary of 50k€ per annum, you'd be left with around 25k€ after tax deduction.
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